WB24: annoyance. 🤥🤥

 THIS WEEK:: (42 days!)

- was really not my week. Just a heads up this blog might be kind of heavy or different than my other blogs so just prepare... I'm the type of person to always focus on the good in things and how we can build off of them. But at the same time keep the negatives aware in mind and not just shut them away in the back of my mind. I'm the type of person to always find a way to bring myself back up from a situation that led me feeling negative. I see myself as the type of person who gives my honest opinion without worrying much about how others react. I know I can't control how people react but when you get constantly tripped over because they reacted so negatively, it gets really damn annoying. I'm not the type of person to honestly say out loud that I'm stupidly mad and honestly tend to keep to myself, isolate, reflect, and cool down. But when faced with someone whose just-- so all over the place. I'm not in charge of their mental health. I realized that long time ago. All I can do is give my advice and give a listening ear when I have time and hope they figure out how to resolve their emotions themselves.. I'm not in charge of their life, their thoughts... It's not my problem what they do, how they choose to react, but when they keep meddling with my mental health- that's when things get past the line. People with no sense or ANY COMPREHENSION of basic, and simple boundaries. It's not even like... THIS IS COMMON SENSE. You don't DUMP THINGS. ALL OVER SOMEONE, WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION. let alone someone you aren't even close with. (at least I DON"T consider us THAT close.) I can't help but feel so irritated. So Frustrated. I can't help but believe at this point, this is some sort of attention seeking behavior.. I'm sorry but I don't normally say things like this but this is my blog, I say what I want... you don't just.. I don't understand how someone could be SO CLOSED MINDED. I give them the best advice that I can, in hopes it might help one tad bit. If it didn't, I just hope they're aware of certain things and that there is always something they can do to help themselves. But when they refuse to find or figure out the solution to their problem-- OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. At this point.. what the hell do you want me to do? I've done everything, everything else is all you.. all out of my hands.. it's not me whos responsible for what you choose to do.. SO DONT MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THAT.  anyway you don't just.. show off... "triggering" things. Like there was no warning, no heads up, no "hey could I talk to you about something?" or even a "Do you mind if I talk about ..." at this point, this is oversharing. I feel like when you talk to someone about how you feel or your thoughts, you should limit it to a certain extent. don't make the person listening.. listen for HOURS. By the extent I mean the line where only you can resolve how you feel. Or if you don't know what that point is or have no idea what I'm talking about, what I'm saying, at least ask how the other person feels about something before you talk about it. This relationship just because so one sided when all someone does is just dump emotions all over!. I don't get how you get so caught up in yourself and not consider how you affect the people around you! They keep jumping from issue to issue on why their life is so miserable, how they feel nothing they do is good enough, I can't keep up. Repeating the same things over.. and just NOT BEING OPEN TO ADVICE. I let you know you can talk to me, but don't just do it without warning or just so suddenly. I give my advice because that's what you ask for, THEN YOU RESPOND WITH... "ok sure." or a "I'll just die hahaha." You think emojis will make it all better-- what do you want me to do? smile with you as you completely ignore everything I say? Like.. I'm sorry.. but no. . I'm tired and fed of letting this stupid situation cause me so much stress and just anxiousness to even open my messages. So my solution and reflection to all this, set my boundaries because sometimes people don't even know what those are. Learn to draw the line. In summary, I feel way better now that the week has ended. At first I thought the relationship I shared with this person was just a normal friendship but when they began dropping this information all over the place, I needed some help but I realized this friendship is hella one sided. I enjoy talking to them about what I normally talk to about people (my dumb ideas and such) , I really do but.. certain things really need to stop like dude you actually need help from professionals not me. AND YOUR FRIENDS.. aren't considered "therapists" like you said...they're people too yk... Anyways yes I'm done but overall that was the thing that took up my mind all week and it was just soo draining to the point where I was getting like put down and into a bad mood. I feel way better now. live laugh love gang... and also watch south park and sonic! 

HIGHTLIGHTS:: 

I got introduced to some new songs! and I got a pink little glorby! (THANK YOU MAL I LOVEOVLEOVEO YOOUU SOOOOO MUCCHH AHAHJAHDKAJSDH) Another highlight, my mom is getting me a cool backpack but Idk what it is.. ALSO I FINALLY THINK I GOT THE ACCENTING DOWN FOR EVERLONG!! my guitar teacher is so funny. Anyways he said I need to practice rhythm so that's what I'll be doing. Another highlight, I know what song I'm playing for talent show. Nothing very cool or flashy, just simple. I love simple songs with absolutely jaw dropping lyrics that you can just visualize so well. Another highlight is that theres only a couple more weeks until the sonic 3 movie comes out! 42 MORE DAYS! (i'm debating on if I should ask my mom if I can bring a friend or two) BUT ANYWAYS IMM SOOSOSOS HAPPY!! Another highlight, I plan on actually reviewing for math. The math test had me feeling a tad bit down because I felt like I wasn't doing my best. But then I took a step back and realized hey, maybe I just need more practice and should learn to review on my own time instead of drawing and wasting my time watching documentaries. Another highlight is MOUTHWASHING (its a game) ITS A REALLY FUN GAME HOLY MOLY! Its so crazy and messed though.. another thing is that I started watching SOUTH PARK! oh my goodness that show is so funny I'm already almost at season 3. But I've also been just jumping from episode to random episodes. My favorite characters are Kenny and Craig. Kenny is just very silly and then Craig sarcasm is also so funny. I ALSO DREW A LOT THIS WEEK AGAIN! IM ON A ROLL! (focusing on small doodles for fun and then when I'm feeling up to it, full illustration!) also I listened to wolf in sheep's clothing (the remaster) oh my goodness all the nostalgia/ Also I got more RP photos yip yaty!

LOWLIGHTS::

- honestly just the math test however it made me realize a ton of things and the importance of REVIEWING COSTANTLY! And letting go of this fear of failure from math.. cause in reality, grades aren't that serious and sometimes we need to just chill out. Anyways another lowlight was that I don't know lowkey I just forgot.. OH I REMEMMBER! NHD! not done with our notes but almost! But i don't know if we should make our documentation on iMovie or capcut....but I'll have it figured out by next week. and I HOPE OUR NOTES WILL FINALLY BE DONE. And finally the last lowlight was GETTING SICK AGAIN. oh my goodness it is a curse. so I didn't go to school on Friday and honestly nothing else is happening Saturday so might as well write my blog now. At least tv was safe :pray:! ANYAWYS ACTUALLY FINAL LOWLIGHT IS THAT COLLECTABLES ARE TOO EXPENSIVE.. or like.. a toy that was sold for 8.00 back when it was out is for some reason $900 on any online website like what the flip i doodle noodle poodle. sigh.. i really want those sonic figurines and the shadow one of Lancelot or the sonic king Arthur. ONE DAY! 

LESSON LEARNED::

- Boundaries. This week I learned that some people don't know the basic common sense of  boundaries when they're venting or speaking their mind. When I talk about something that might anger or make someone feel a certain way, I give a heads up. I say, "I'm gonna be completely honest," or I say, "Can I be honest with you?" or if I really need advice, let them know that I'm feeling kind of down. I realized that boundaries are important to be set. I realized that sometimes it might be hard because sometimes they person your are drawing the lines to might take it as, that your invalidating their feelings. some people are too caught up in themselves to understand and see how others feel and react when they do certain things. but sometimes you just need to speak your mind and if some people can't acknowledge what you say, then it's okay to stop being friends. Another thing I learned, The Difference between Healthy Venting and Emotional Dumping. I basically learned that dumping so much on a person can just mentally drain them and even build resentment because... its like they're talking to a broken record, and they have no say because this person is just verbal vomiting's all over the place and it just feels so awkward as the sharing comes and goes out of nowhere and just makes the conversation overall unpleasant and one you want to avoid. Then when you try to avoid, the other person feels irritated because your trying to avoid them. But then there comes in the importance of boundaries... this week really taught me a lot and this week won't be one I'll forget. ANYWAYS LIVE LAUGH LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!