WHATS UP, + FRESHMAN YEAR (7/12/26)

     HELLO:: 🙈🙈

    Hello everybody, It's Riselle and I'm back with another blog that only future me will read and some anonymous people too. Anyways, this summer has been pretty good I spent the first month of June, in summer school! A pretty loser thing to do, but Mr. Jardin was pretty fun. Anyways. This summer I started commissions, for.. robux. Not money yet, I don't think I know how to handle all of that... YET! Anyways Life's been crazy, I haven't uploaded to this since basically last year. Anyways, Freshman year has been crazy. Well, not too crazy. I don't really know if I learned a lot about myself this year as much as I did in middle school... but who cares! Life is Life, tea is tea, Bread is bread. Moving along, I had a pretty crazy bio teacher. Her name was Miss Chandra, she was CRAZY YO! So, one thing she did that made me really mad, was when she doesn't teach. Which was like every day. She was either not at school, or on a trip, or just not even teaching. I'm being honest, I'm surprised that I passed her class. Just kidding, I'm smart. Anyway. Studying for bio wasn't even bad! Like Bio was SO EASY. I remembered proteins because they carry out chemical reactions, but it's kind of like the "WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE" by MCR where they "carry on" kind of like how they "CARRY OUT" chemical reactions. 

    Also, As I'm writing this, its summer and I'm going to be a sophomore. Which is crazy but, not too crazy at all. It's like becoming an 8th grader but it's not. In August, specifically after the 23, I'll be old enough to try to get my permit. 

    Back to topic, Freshman Year started off pretty well. My dad really wanted me to get into some extracurricular, so I got into soft tennis right away. There I was my introduction to soft tennis, it was great! So very fun that I decided to join JV girls tennis where I met some incredible people and bonded more with friends.  Also, during first semester, I was in ceramics! It was one of my most favorite, easiest, and enjoyable classes. I really enjoyed making all kinds of pinch pots and things out of clay. I really liked my teacher too because he was pretty chill and it was not hard at all to get an A. You just needed to turn something in on time and abide criteria. It was really fun getting to make a google site. Then I also had Mr.  Murasaki, who was my uncle's teacher (Uncle CHAD) anyways it was funny hearing stories about my uncle from him. His class was really easy; it was just a review of what we learned in 7th and 8th grade. It was no sweat at all; I slept a lot during his class and managed to download a good 1043 chapters of LOTM (LORD OF THE MYSERTIES) and read to chapter 100.  I also became an ambassador because I missed having something to do, and leadership was really fun for me. However, I wasn't really satisfied with it because obviously, it wasn't the same. I think one of the best aspects about becoming an FSA ambassador is definitely RAD day. It was my favorite because I got to see Mr. Damo's class and we got to chit chat after I wrapped up my presentation. 

    Another class I took during Semester 1 was Algebra 2. That was my second most favorite class. My teacher, aka the G.O.A.T, MR TAKAMORI was so cool. He didn't assign us homework, and he wasn't really strict at all. My favorite was when he made mistakes and he'd say to us all, "It's okay guys we're still learning." He made math seem really easy, which is surprising given how scared I was in Algebra 1. Anyways I got a 4 on my Algebra EOC. (call me CRACKED AT THE GAME) Mr. Takamori is one of my favorite teachers during freshman year, and I even made him a letter at the end of the year. 

    Moving on to semester 2, it wasn't that bad, but I felt like I was miserable. I know it's an exaggeration, but I feel like semester two really shook me in a way I couldn't explain. I decided to take Math 100 that semester. At first, it didn't seem that bad, it really wasn't but I couldn't find or create a schedule for myself to balance that class and my other classes. I was taking Geometry, Chemistry (which was not a normal class for a freshman to take, I seemed to have pulled the short straw IG) ELA 1, and my foundations class. I had a lot of homework specifically from ELA and Chemistry. Then added on top Math 100, I cried multiple times because of how anxious I was. Before this, around JV girls tennis season, I had started a journal documenting thoughts and other stuff. And tons of the pages were about Math 100. I really hated it, I didn't want to do it anymore, I would spend 7-9 hours a week (apparently, according to the syllabus his was NORMAL) STUDYING. It wasn't even like I could decide when to do my work, I had to do it right on time and prioritize it over my other things. Around the time I even wanted to do Varsity Tennis but ended up not doing it because Math 100 was stressing me out. (Sorry Coach Nilo and Arlene... sob) Anyway. Math 100 seriously ruined me. It was so tedious. But, learning about statistics, computer science, probability, and those dumb symbols in math were interesting... I managed to hold out and pass with an A! My grade was pretty high; I managed to be able to skip the last exam. I'm so locked in. I feel like that really showed me that if you put a lot of effort into everything you do, it pays off in the end. I really liked my classes more this semester honestly. My favorite would probably be Chemistry and my Foundations class. I got to bond with upperclassmen and even friends that I didn't know to well. Chemistry was so fun, Mrs. Tang really made things super easy. I enjoyed her class so much even though she taught really fast. At first, she told me I was her ONLY freshman. So she tried to scare me out of the class, to make me drop the class. However, I ended up passing with an A and with the HIGHEST grade in ALL HER CLASSES. which is one of my biggest flexes.. haha.. Then in foundations class I learned about videos and photography. I learned about film and even created my own music video. It was seriously so fun and I'm so glad I had classes that I could do what I enjoyed it. 

HIGHLIGHTS:: 

 Highlights of this year was probably all the friends I made. Another was all the things I tried out. I really want to make the best out of each year so I want to try whatever I can. Another highlight of this year was hitting 1.2K on my Tiktok! My goal for this year was 1K, but we went over that! which is awesome. Another one is passing all my classes and staying a 4.0 GPA student. One of my biggest highlights have to be my friends. I want to thank my dear best friends, Azalea, Ava, Jacob, Cassell, and Neil for being my friends for so long. I have to say I get emotional when I think about all we've done together and the phases we've been through. Even though we aren't crazy popular or the shining diamond in the rough, we make the best out of what we've got whether it be stupid gaming nights or mall hangouts and Pearl ridge AGAIN and AGAIN. Our hangouts this year, and this summer, really made me happy. thanks guys love yall foreal. oh and thanks Kupa too, it was fun doing ur essay you Georgian kid. Also the community service opportunites from ilima were so fun too. Thank you Leadership hahahah.. I miss it so muchh!!! 

LOWLIGHTS::

- Ms Chandra.. she literally made us watch a video of a guy getting his liver pulled out and screaming with like blood. And then she made us poke and prode at seaweed instead of letting us disect a rat. I was so sad. anyways another one was math 100, which I already explained why. Another lowlight would be my parents and my aunt. Their relationship has only worsened over time.. now they've moved out and my dad even has a restraining order against my aunt's husband. It was scary, hearing him say that he wanted to kill my dad. But I'm glad that my dad handled the situation. Another lowlight would be all the stress from freshman year. but overall its okay! It was worth it. 

LESSON LEARNED + CHALLENGES::

However, over Freshman Year, I've come to realize that some things have to be let go. Whether it be friends, goals, and sometimes even dreams. Certain things are just out of your control. In 8th grade, I thought that I wanted to make my own comic series or own story, become and artist! and animator! But summer of Freshman Year, I realized, do I seriously want that? Sure, its fulfilling to pursue your dreams but.. I really wanted to be stable in my future. So I decided that I would switch to STEAM, and do computer science. Its not like I let go of my hobby, but its more of really officiating that my hobby, at the end of the day is just mostly a hobby. I feel like Freshman Year, has taught me lots of things. Espeically about liars, about people who exaggerate, and how it's important to have a conscious mind and create your own opinions and perspectives. I feel like I've gotten a bit wiser, mellowed out a bit. It's not like I care, I do. But I try not to let it ruin me anymore. However, it can seem like a contradicting mindset, because what will happen if I eventually don't care enough at all? Something like that.  BONUS: Today, I learned what a Horsehead fiddle was! it's seriosuly so cool, I hope one day I can save up enough money and go learn how to play it. I think my real goal in life is to try as many things as I can, to stay uncomfortable and become comfortable in the uncomfortable. 

I think one of the biggest challenges I've faced in Freshman Year, was my self doubt. Which has been shadowing me since middle school. It's not something that'll disappear, which makes it harder to overcome. I know I can accomplish great things. However I just feel like an imposter when put against other peoples words. People would tell me, "you're so good at guitar!" but I didn't feel like I was good. But then it seems like I'm invalidating their compliments. I just feel like they don't understand it on my point of view, I don't remember the songs I learn well and sure I make covers but.. Am I really good? No. I'm not. But that's okay. I feel like I'm standing Infront of a black hole, that wants to pull me in to fufill it. But, it's a black hole, it'll never be fulfilled. However, I guess everything comes back full circle. At the end of the day, Life is Life. You are you. Things can seem big but they're actually just really small. And it's all about how you view it and how you come back from it.