WB28: A LITTLE LESS THAN. (13 more days)

December 07, 2024

WB28: A LITTLE LESS THAN. (13 more days)

THIS WEEK:: 💥💥 (13 MORE DAYS)

- is what I would call the worst but that would be contradicting because this isn't my worst week ever. This week was kind a rush! Especially with NHD due at the end of the week. This week I made a whole bunch of friends! Or well got closer to people by well having small talk! And It was a freaking blast. Also... I met someone this week who absolutely blew me away and shocked me bro.... like HOLY MOLY HOW ARE YOU ABLE TO DO LIKE SO MANY THINGS (more than I can count with my figures) and BE PROFIECENT IN EACH ONE????? In a way afterwards I felt kind of stumped because I felt like well... I was preventing my own progress! Like a curse of some sort. I wouldn't know how to explain it. But I guess I would say I felt "a little less than" what I really am. This week really made me feel self-doubt. I felt like this entire week I wasn't "doing enough" whether it be in things school related or just be things like my hobbies. I was so caught up in where I was and where someone else is that I totally forgot the main reason why I do things. I paint, draw, do all these things because I enjoy it. When I began turning something I loved into something I hated... I guess that's where I kind went tumbling down in this week. I also had to realize; everyone is at different stages. Everyone learns differently, and some learn quicker than the others. This week I forgot about the things I was proud of. I forgot about my own achievements and how they reflect my growth. I guess my mindset warping into this sense of distortion was in reality what was making me feel overwhelmed. I was beginning to lose faith in myself, and it sort of really baffled me because I was afraid, I was falling short, and in addition, I'm someone who believes that if you work hard and have confidence, you'll achieve it! But this week It's like I forgot it all and dropped it. I guess it was just frustrating battling my own self in my own head because everything I was thinking, was going against everything I believed. But then I guess that's just what self-doubt is! But I made my way through it. Anyways this week we had our math test for slope and stuff and its not that hard but serious what the flip my confidence in the test slowly deteriorating lol.... but I got i! I'll ask ms doles for help!!! And review with IXL and my notes. Anyways ELA diagnostic... its diagnostic weeks now.. sigh.. but 3 weeks to do ELA diagnostic is crayyy!!! Math is the only thing freaking me out but I have faith cause I'm at 558! which is above 540 (which is needed to pass the class!) Anyways HOORAY? but cannot celebrate yet.. until all this is over! Also mr damo's essay had me crashing so did NHD. But overally WE MANAGED TO PERSEVRE!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOO! Talent Show on friday was so bomb too guys like BLACKOUT ADJSAKDJASD!!!!! No cause Olina was so good SHE BLEW ME AWAY AGAIN JUST LIKE HER AUDTION.. Overall, this week... I'm glad its over! Bowling is next week :0!

HIGHTLIGHTS::

- TALENT SHOW. DEFINETLY TALENT SHOW. GUYS BLACKOUT IS MY FAV. They're all so silly... I couldn't quite hear their first song sadly but I heard 505 and Everlong!!!!!! WOOWHOO! They're so nice dude like we were just having small talk but it was so entertaining!? I loved talking about weezer and random bands and just silly things like WOwZA. Anyways Dude talent show had me soo nervous especially for me cause well I messed up a few times during the practice and I was freaking out... But I decided to go over a few more times... Like never in my life have I felt so nerve racked! However I managed to get through. PEOPLE SAID I DID AWESOMESAUCE!!!!!! Which really made me happy... like really shocked because well I doubted myself a whole bunch... WOAH. THAT WAS SO NERVE RACKING THOUGH LIKE OMGOMGMGOGM....... Also another highlight is im learning "Still WAiting" by Sum 41, my guitar teachers been doing quick christmas songs for me to learn they're really easy. I'm also learning seasons by wave to earth cause I never realized how easy that song is. Another highlight would be finishing NHD! WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!

LOWLIGHTS::

- Diagnostics. seriously. screw those. Worst possible thing that could happen, I drop a grade. ANother lowlight would be my self doubting mindset of the week. It was irritating. Also another lowlight is the little amount of sleeP I got throughout the week. Espeically becasue of NHD. Like on Wednesday and Thursday I stayed up until 3 AM in the Morning. I remmeber friday morning I was absolutely losing it because I thought I was seeing things but the weekend was rewarding. Another lowlight is that.. welll... CAMPBELL REGISTERATION. IM GONNA CRASH. Okay anyway so I didn't know and was so confused about registering. They tell us to ask questions but the thing is what is there to ask?????? Like you told us the basics but...sigh nevermind. And... IT TURNS OUT ALL MY FRIENDS CHOSE JAPANESE except for some BUT SERIOUSLY. I would've picked it too.. but I wanted to learn about french! PLUS ALEX WAS DOING IT SO ITS A POSITIVE!? sigh I just hope campbell next year goes alright. Them bringing up registeration in general just made me aboslutely drop my jaw on the floor because... I was kinda FOCUSING ON THE PRESENT. not stressing about next year.... But I guess its okay. Next year will be my test round but as of right now, I'm gonna make 8th grade my best year.

LESSON LEARNED::

My lesson of the week its okay to doubt yourself sometimes. Just don't let it become consistent. Seriously this entire week it was bothering me because it felt so self-deprecating it went against everything I always tell myself! Whenever I play guitar, I just feel uncertain sometimes because well I don't think I meet my own standards. I'm quite harsh on myself not because of inferiority but because I want to push myself harder and improve more. I always strive to become better than the person I was yesterday. Hence my quote on my biocube. "the only person you need to be better than was the person you were yesterday." I guess I kinda forgot that quote is what I live by. I always find it easy to compare myself to others because I guess its easier to point out your flaws and your short comings rather than someone else's. Its easy to let that pile up but eventually when the pile gets too high it'll fall on you, with everything an absolute mess. I guess adding on to my lesson is, the only person you need to compare yourself too is yourself! Sure its alright to be open to others methods of doing things or mannerisms but reflecting on your growth is better than refelcting on someone elses because well... how does there growth affect yours? Only you can affect your own growth.