WB48: STILL HERE.

 THIS WEEK:: 📝📝

- it felt like I was fluctuating through moods, some days I felt absolutely idle, or like everything was going to fast, or that everything was so slow and others I felt awfully calming for some reason. This week made me realize I really need to get my own calendar to put on my wall. I am so bad at keeping track of time, I hadn’t realized two weeks have passed and I’m still behind on gifts. This week I also felt incredibly sick like bleeggh kind of sick. My throat seriously is terrible, like I was afraid of losing my voice or sounding really sick. SPeaking of voice, we had TV this week! Anela like lost her voice or smt LOL. but anyways I realized that this was our last week of TV. and honestly I don't know how to feel. It feels like its nothing but it just feels like im just existing right now. Nothings being processed in my head. What I think was the coolest thing though, I was the first 7th grader on TV, and now I'm the last 8th grader on TV. Has some sort of cool metaphoric feeling to it hahaha. I would love to do that idea Alex had of 8th graders signing off. This week was not only the last week of working but also the last week of magic notes. I seriously put a lot of my mind into those magic notes. However, as the week went by, or when the weekend rolled in, I felt like, I had more to say. More to say not only to the 8th graders, but the 7th graders too. But its weird since I wrote double sided on everyones magic note and used up majority of the space, completely using the magic note. I guess I realized, theres many things that you can't summarize into a magic note. It felt like I was writing letters haha.. I love the 7th graders so much. I'm so proud of all of them and I honestly feel just so happy for them because I feel like I accomplished one of the goals I established for myself in my 7th grade year for my 8th grade year. "To give the 6th graders the experience I had." I know the year isn't over, I still have two weeks of school left and a lot of things can happen in those few weeks but thats not what I'm focusing on. I'm thinking of now and honestly, I feel so close to fulfilled. Another thing that happened this week was the EOC for algebra. Honestly it isn't as bad as I thought it was. Which I'm glad. I feel prepared, I studied day after day, and practically went over every subject and topic we went over for algebra. Looking back on it, all my struggles feel like things I can laugh at now since I've gotten through them. It feels like those situations especially for tests, it just feels like they got less daunting in a way. Speaking of tests we had a science test that people were saying was hard and that worried me but I just went though and trusted my gut. Sometimes when I look up at the ceiling or when I'm doing nothing much, I just fall into deep thought, and some sort of deep reflection, sometimes being alone with my thoughts makes me feel like I find my own solutions and gain a clearer understanding of my own struggles and what I've learned from them. Add in some music in the background, literally awesome experience. Anyways another thing that happened this week is that I got a new amp! The amp i've been saving up for! I finally got it. I'm so happy. 

HIGHTLIGHTS:: 

 This week had quite a lot of highlights. THe first highlight is this blog. When I write blogs, even though there are days when blogs feel tedious, I feel like when I write blogs I can really just think and talk about whatever. I feel like I can easily solve my problems in a way. When I type or write it out, sometimes I can like spot out if I was wrong or what I could've done better. What I love more than ever is looking back on my blogs and seeing the format change, my typing change, and like myself grow. Another highlight is Cheyanne and Emma. The reason for this is because they both cried to my magic note to them in a way. Honestly someone crying to my magic note made me feel I have no idea, like woah. I had the capability, what I wrote was enough to stir up a reaction like that? It feels unreal. It reminds me of one time in 7th grade, Alex was crying because of a letter she was given and I remember seeing her cry, it made me wonder, "I wonder what was written on it. I doubt I could ever write something so good to make someone cry." Coming back to now, I guess I was surprised because deep down, I really didn't expect my words to carry so much... weight. I didn't expect mines to do the same but when Cheyanne was crying, I genuinely didn't expect it to be over my magic note. Its like I unexpectly stepped into a role that I simply could only admire at a distance a year ago. My words, moved someone, it moved emma too! She mentioned almost crying but didn't because I was near. Its just I feel so happy, I never thought I could do such a thing, but looking back on it I just did. I feel absolutely flattered if thats the word, I feel just awfully surprised and astonished. Another highlight of my week is the science test and the reason being that people were saying it was pretty hard and 50% of their class failed. But I honestly felt like I was just phasing through it and somehow managed to get 14/15? It's like I was just, accepting a low grade, I was preparing myself for it, and was like if it happens it happens, but it felt like I regained an actual thought when I saw my score. It's weird.  Finally, my biggest highlight of the week is INVICIBLE. Okay so I watched invincible because I thought it was just a funny show BUT NO. ITS ACTUALLY SO GOOD. INVICIBLE IS SO GOOD. MARK IS MY FAVORITE CHARACTER. okay spoilers going ahead so if youre gonna watch invincible, skip. Okay the first season is pretty crazy, it starts off with OMni man, or Nolan who is basically superman, so hes basically not from earth and he is from a place called Viltrum. he has a kid named mark, and a wife named debbie. They're living happily, and suddenly, Mark gets his powers and thats when things go south. Nolan, or Omni Man trains Mark. By the way, OMni man is one of earth's MOST POWERFUL SUPERHEROS. THe other superheros are just superheros or the guardians of the globe who are like a team of strong heros. Anyawys Mark, gets his powers and and becomes a hero calling himself, INVICIBLE. Anyways as hes going through adolesence, getting a girlfriend, this hero thing, and other academic stuff, He discovers that his dad was actually a bad guy because he was actually sent to weaken earth instead of protecting it. He needed to weaken earth so he killed the guardians of the globe in the beginning around the time he finds out mark got his powers. Then finally at the end of the season, in an absolutely brutal battle or showdown whatever, Omni Man, his dad, almost kills mark. But he ended up sparing him and leaving the earth behind because of the emotional turmoil he had after it all. Then in season two, Mark is lost in the aftermath as he tries to put his life back together by trying to prove himself as a hero and there are many new villains like ANgstrom levy whos this guy who can access all these other dimensions, and then the Viltrumites are trying to get earth back but this forces Mark to make pretty difficult choices. There were so many times where he had to save the world and lose time with his girlfriend. In one of these cases, he needed to go to space again to save this other planet. Inhabiting that other planet, is his dad who he has built a new family, and is saving lives again. Their reunion was pretty wild because Mark struggles to trust his dad because after his betrayal, he felt like there were all these emotions inside and he finds out he even has a brother. It kinda hurt him cause it was like how did he just move on? At the end of the season Mark tries to still solve his problems but he realizes he needs to let some things go too. INVICIBLE IS SO GOOD LIEK I GET WHY PEOPEL LIEK IT AND I KEEP SEEING AND HEARING REFERENCES TO ALL OF THE TIKTOK AUDIOS OMG. Anotehr highlight is ITS MY DOG IZZY'S BIRTHDAY MAY 17TH! HPAPY 7TH BIRTHDYA IZZY BIZZY.

LOWLIGHTS::

-some lowlights of the week would be my guitar lessons cause theres this one part of the song that I'm stuck on. Its simple but I keep overthinking it. I still don't get the gist of it but its okay I jsut need to keep trying. Another lowlight is being sick. my throat hurts so bad and with the time of the month coming again its a terrible combo. I feel so sick oh my lord. Another lowlight of my week would be that I have so many gifts and projects to start on. IM SO BEHIND BUT I NEED TO START OR ELSE ILL NEVER FINISH. I have so much prepared for the 8th graders and the 7th graders too. my final lowlight is that I didn't even finish the book char gave me. I really need to finish it up.  

LESSON LEARNED::

.  My lesson learned of this week to be honest. I learned that having that honesty and vulnerability can just resonate with people in surprsing ways. I didn't expect my magic note to reach Cheyanne and Emma and like its funny to think about cause like my words didn't really stay on the paper it affected them emotionally. I think thats really heartwarming because I love them so much. I also learned its better to be honest because coming up with lies, just isn't good. I should've just been honest because they would've understood that I just didn't feel in the mood to do anything. 

FAV MAGIC NOTE::

This one had to be the hardest. I loved everyones magic notes but I decided to narrow it down to 4. The first one is sienna's magic note. I loved the part where she talked about how she never thought we would have such a bond but seriously me too. To think that we do now is something I'm proud of and somethign I love. Another thing that I loved of her magic note was when she called me humble. I guess I never realized it but I am a humble person. Especially when she mentioned how I don't brag about my accomplishments because it just made me think about how I see my own accomplishments. I don't see any point in bragging because in the end I think everyone can be just as capable as each other. My other favorite magic note was emma's I thoguht I wasn't her favorite but seeing as she wrote it herself, made me really happy. I'm glad she loves me as much as I love her. I LOVE YOU EMMA. My third favorite magic note is Ariya's. My glorious knight in shining emoe. I love her so much. her magic note spoke of how I was a big part in her expereince and I love that because that was one of my goals in 7th grade, to be apart of that big experience and impact it too. I love how she said I taught her so much, because in a way she taught me things too. i lvoe how I can learn from all my peers. Finally, my other favorite magic note, Cheyanne. Cheyanne if u read this blog you stalker, I have this written for you. since you left me something on your blog. 

    Hey Cheyanne, I really loved your magic note, it made me smile and tear up but then I realized this isnt goodbye you silly. I'll see you so many times I swear I'll come around too. When you called me your biggest role model in your magic note, it feels like I switched places with my past self. When I see you, I see myself in you and when I think about myself today, I think of you. I'm really proud of you, I know i've said it before but your hardworking self can achieve a lot in life. I believe that hardwork can get you what you want. Along with everything you've learned through your life. I'm not leaving you silly, text me whenever! I'm just a text away! or 5 minutes away if you wanna walk lol! I see you as like a little me in a way if I'm being honest. But I know you're not entirely me. YOure your own person too and I absolutely adore that. I adore your indiviudality, your toys, your little record player, and just your smile feels infectious because it turns my rainy day into a sunny one. If you're happy, I'm happy. So Don't cry. Youll make me cry. Im still here. Love you cheyanne. Don't feel sad, feel happy because we still have time to make more memories and have silly conversations before grad. Even after, we still have all the time in the world to talk about anything and everything!